To The Guy Who Never Told Me We Were Over,

To The Guy Who Never Told Me We Were Over,

I remember driving to meet you for the very first time and I distinctly recall having the powerful feeling that you were going to dramatically affect my life. I knew it then as surely as I know it now. Looking back, I know I was just another girl to you, and you meant so much more to me. But I learned about myself – and what I think about love and life – from casually dating you. Thank you, firstly, for that.

By the time I met you that you had already completely charmed me through your flirty texts and quick wit. Our banter flew back and forth like wildfire. But even then, I knew you weren’t like the other nice guys I had dated before. I will be the first to admit there were a million signs that I didn’t mean much to you – and never would – even from the very beginning. Those little things should have stopped me from falling for you. But of course, they didn’t. I would have been the first to say you just weren’t that into me, but in classic douche form, you always gave me just enough to keep holding on.

You were careless with me; you were selfish, cavalier, and indifferent. You disappeared for weeks at a time and put in so little effort, but then there were stretches when you would text me every day and make plans to see me. What hurts the most is that when you were with me, I know you really liked me. When you were with me, you mentioned things I said in passing, or held out your arm to me so I could hold the crook of your elbow just the way I liked. You talked to me like you’d been bursting to tell me things about your life for the whole time that we were apart (I mean, during those weeks you ignored me). You took pictures of us together, and pulled me in for the sweetest, most innocent kisses on the street corner and in the booth at the back of the bar. Every time I was with you I couldn’t help but fall harder. You were everything I adored: boyish, yet trying to be manly; incredibly smart; driven; and overtly masculine. Those times we were together were magic for me. But when we were apart, I almost lost my mind because of your indifference, and how loudly your silence screamed that you just didn’t care.

So here I am, two months after that first date, and I am not the same because of you. And I know, oh I know, I deserve to be treated better. I know I deserve to be with someone who treats me as a priority instead of an option. I know I deserve someone who is clear about where I stand with him. I know I deserve someone who doesn’t blow me off on a Saturday night, but then texts me at 1 AM to ask me where I am. I know because I’ve been lucky in love before you, my Michigan douche. I’ve never been treated this way before, even by the guys I have dated casually. I’ve never had a fling with a jerk, so thank you for being the first. Thank you giving me a new appreciation for the exceptional men I have dated before you.

Thank you for helping me realize how much more I am worth and that I cannot let my singular experience with you make me insecure. Thank you for prompting me to recognize how truly optimistic I am. Even after dating you, I will not be cynical about men and love, and I still refuse to believe that you are a purposefully manipulative and misleading person at your core. No, I think you have been hurt and have built iron-clad walls that guard your heart from all emotion, especially love (or, maybe I am still romanticizing you and you actually are shallow and cold. But I don’t like to think of people that way).

Thank you for helping me realize what I truly want in love. I want a guy to look at me like Leonardo DiCaprio’s Gatsby looks at Carey Mulligan’s Daisy Buchanan; like Brad still looks at Angelina; like my papa looks at my mom. I need devotion and adoration, love and affection. But I think you love yourself too much to ever look at anyone that way, let alone me.

Thank you for compelling me to explore the depth and complexity of my humanity. I still want you – and I know I could still love you – regardless of how you have treated me, and regardless of the fact that I know a prolonged relationship with you would have ultimately left me unhappy and unfulfilled. Ask me how this can be, and I will tell you I have asked myself the same perplexing questions a million times. I have reflected and looked deep into myself because of you.

And even though I willingly indulged and enabled your douche behavior, thank you for encouraging me to just accept that I am human, and that I cannot always protect or prevent myself from falling for people who are bad for me. Thank you for helping me forgive myself for letting you have my heart, against every rational thought in my being.

Thank you for being the ultimate test of how much I truly live up to the standards of decency and gentility that I claim to uphold. Thanks to you, I have found so much inner strength by always being mannerly and kind to you, and showing you that I care – not only because I fell for you, but because you were a human being in my life. And I still have it in me to wish you all the happiness in the world, even though you couldn’t even give me the time of day to tell me it was over.

I thank you for helping me realize that I cannot really be angry at you because I think above all, you should be pitied. Pitied because you’ve been hurt and now, you’re incredibly guarded. Pitied because you didn’t recognize a great girl like me waiting to love you. Pitied because you will never truly be able to love someone the way I can. In one of your few vulnerable moments, you told me you had been cheated on multiple times. I know now that girls who thrive on drama and betrayal are the only kind of girls who will settle for the way you treat them, and those are the only girls you will ever know.

So I feel sorry for you because here I stood. I would have loved you to the ends of the earth and back. I would have protected your heart, and offered you mine. I would have been the girl who didn’t break you into a million little pieces, the girl who cared about every mundane detail of your ordinary life. I would have been your girl. And I pity you for letting me slip away.

As I walk away from you, I will just keep reminding myself that douches like you are the ones who are truly losing out. I know I never “officially” had you, but you should have been begging for me to be yours all along. Despite all of the uncertainty I associate with you, one thing I am sure of is this: one day, you will realize that you made a huge mistake by letting a girl like me get away.

And you’ll be back. Or at least, that is what I’ve heard about guys like you.

Unofficially Yours,
The Girl Who Would Have Loved You 

Why Second Love Is The Real One

Second love teaches you how to love again after you’ve been broken. It teaches you that love still exists, that you’re capable of loving again and loving harder. That you can still have faith in love no matter how much pain your first love caused you. Second love is there to pick up the pieces.

Second love gives you hope. That your fairy tale is still out there. That heartbreak is not the end of the world and that there are better things ahead. It shows you what happens when you move on, when you let go, when you try again and when you never lose hope. Second love shows you the light after the dark.

Second love is braver. It means you know how to forgive, you know how to risk getting hurt again because it’s worth it. It means that you’re prepared for the worst but you’re hoping for the best. Second love makes you stronger.

Second love makes you believe in timing. Why things didn’t work out the first time around, why you fell in love with the wrong person, why you had to get your heartbroken and why someone left you when they promised to love you. It’s here to tell you that there is always a valid reason behind your pain and that loving someone doesn’t always mean they’re right for you. Second love answers all these questions.

Second love makes sense. It’s not based on childhood fantasies or lust or infatuation. It’s not blind or reckless or toxic. It’s not based on unrealistic expectations or sheer obsession. Second love comes after you’ve learned to listen to your gut, to watch for the red flags, to pick someone because they will add value to your life and when you’ve learned to make decisions out of maturity not out of loneliness.

Second love shows you that you can be someone’s first choice and shows you what it really means to be loved

I Can’t Get You Off My Mind, But You Can’t Even Text Me Back

I sat here for nearly 20 minutes staring at my phone screen deciding if I should hit send or not on a message, a stupid message that said, “hey” because I was scared that would be too much.

But I hit send and you responded. You responded a total of three times and that was all.

Now I remember why I felt the hesitation I did to hit send in the first place.

I can’t stop thinking about you and I don’t even interest you enough to respond to my texts, but don’t worry. I heard your message loud and clear.

It’s time to stop hanging on to someone who has no intentions of staying, who has no interest in being in my life or even being there for me in the slightest way.

So, I’m done. You win.

I’m done telling myself you must care about me when you clearly don’t. I’m no longer trying to convince myself that maybe the spark is still there, that maybe it just needs to be rekindled a little.

I’m over allowing my heart to be mistreated by people who don’t even want it when I’m trying so hard to stick it in the palms of their hands.

I’m not saying this is your fault, no. It’s mine. It’s all my fault for stupidly trying to create something out of nothing. I wanted there to be chemistry, I wanted there to be a connection between us and I wanted to believe that you’re the one for me, but it’s obvious you’re not. I wanted it so bad I kept trying to create something out of nothing.

You don’t want to be there and I keep trying so hard to be a presence in your life, to make you remember me, to pop up on your phone screen and make you think of me. But stupidly enough, I’ve yet to realize enough is enough and it’s time to bite the bullet and give up, until now.

Now I realize we’ve had our fun and that’s all it was to you. You never wanted more, but I wanted to believe you did because I did. You never wanted to stick around and cook breakfast with me. You never intended on asking me to go to the movies with you. You didn’t want to go for a walk in the middle of the day hand in hand. You wanted none of that, but I tried so desperately to create that imagine in my head because it’s what I wanted with you, even when you had no interest in that life with me.

It took you not texting me back after only a few responses to realize this is over, it’s so long gone and I’m desperately clinging to something that is no longer there. You’ve moved on and I thought maybe I could convince you that I’m still here and I still want this, but none of it matters because you don’t want me.

As much as I want you, I’m letting you go because no matter how much I might want you I also want you to want it too, and you don’t.

Here’s to no more text messages, no more random Snapchats, no more anything. I heard your message loud and clear, and it’s time for me to move on, too.

You’ll always live in my heart, but no longer in my head. 

E ven Though It’s Over For You, It’s Not Over For Me

Even though it’s over, I can still feel you here. When I close my eyes at night I can still feel your hands interlaced with mine and I swear I can feel your arms around me. I can still smell you in the air and I can still feel your heart beating.

Even though it’s over, I still miss you. I go through our text messages and laugh at our jokes. I still remember everything that we said and did. I remember your birthday that we spent in front of the pond talking about the world. And I remember arguing about which flavor of pizza to get.

Even though it’s over, I still think about you. I think about everything we were and everything we could have been. Then I think about what we are and it still breaks my heart every time.

Even though it’s over, I still wish you’d change your mind. I still wish you’d come back to me. Sometimes I stare at my phone, because I hope you’ll reach out to me one day.

Even though it’s over, I still write about you. No matter how many days pass that you don’t cross my mind, somehow you’ll always come back again and I’ll write everything that I want to tell you.

Even though it’s over, it’s still you. Your smile. Your laugh. Your eyes. Your scent. Your words. Your touch. It’s always just you.

Because even though it’s over for you, it’s not over for me.

Whatever We Are, I Miss You

I didn’t think that I would miss you but I do.

Every morning when I wake up, the first thing I look at is my cellphone. Your name is always there. A text message response to a conversation we had the night before.

Every. Single. Morning. For nine months. This has been our routine.

But the last message I got from you was at midnight a week ago. You said we should part ways. No detailed explanation why. You said your good bye and that was that. No response to my questions. No acknowledgement of anything.

You just left. No reason. No explanation. You’re just gone.

I spent several days playing our conversation over and over. What did I say that was wrong? What did I do? Why did this happen? It’s a never-ending string of questions that I know will never have a response to.

We’re not even dating. We’re not in any kind of relationship. We, honestly, do not even know what we are. We never defined it. We’re just… us.

Randomly meeting in an extraordinary mixture of events that can only be attributed to fate. Out of the handful of people in the area, walking around, you decided to approach me as I was packing my bag to leave. Small, random conversation leading to topics we surprisingly realized we were both passionate about. I knew right then and there that this was not a coincidence. This was fate, knocking at my door.

It was so easy conversing with you, as if we’ve known each other our whole lives. We both have a quirky sense of humor. You appreciate my random bursts of useless information. You find it endearing. I love the way you get excited about small things I send you. I find it refreshing. We share the same values. We connect.

Fate brought you to me, but destiny decided you’re not going to stay.

Not a day goes by that I don’t wish we were texting again. I want to tell you the latest news regarding the theme park ride that we both love. Or the publishing date of that book series we were both following. Even a small piece of trivia regarding a tv show that we were crazy about.

Not a day goes by that I don’t wish I could still text you pictures of my latest adventure. Or send you the latest pose of my fur baby. Or even just a random “how’s your day going?”

Not a day goes by that I don’t wish we could still discuss our lives and our problems. Vent out my frustrations and listen to you vent yours.

Not a day goes by that I don’t wish we were back to being whatever we were. I miss that.

I miss you. I didn’t think I would…but I do.

Not a day goes by that I don’t realize that you’re more important to me than I thought. That maybe we’re not just whatever. Maybe we’re more than that.

But now, I’ll never know. 

Why It’s So Hard To Lose Someone Who Was Never Yours

Just when I accepted that things were going to be bleak, you came. You were that one person I didn’t expect to majorly turn things around for me. To be honest, I thought our first date would be our last because you were a bit quiet; which made me think you weren’t enjoying my company. Little did I know, that it was just the beginning of the happy moments that are now just memories etched in my mind.

We were total opposites but our personalities jived greatly. While you were mostly reserved, you never failed to make me feel that I was wanted. Your texts were consistent, you made sure we saw each other regularly, you constantly held my hand, and always kissed me when I arrived and before I left. I appreciated that even though we never talked about what we really were, you always made me feel special. I always marveled at the effort you put into us, and I am very grateful for all of it.

At some point I started feeling genuinely happy again. Having you in my life made me hopeful that I might have another shot at happiness.

I still had bad days, but knowing that you were there made everything bearable, because I knew I had something good to look forward to. You were my happy pill; just the thought of you in my life made me smile. Thinking about us always made me feel like everything was going to be okay, and I truly believed we were going to end up somewhere great.

But now I’m back to square one. You left me when things went glum. I can’t completely blame you because the situation was frightening, but I wish you’d stayed. I know things went insane, but I was willing to do everything in my power to keep you safe. But you made me feel as if I wasn’t worth the risk, even though I took every chance for you. I put my guard down for you in spite of my fears of being hurt, because I believed you were worth it. I also understood your fears. I know it wouldn’t have been easy, but you didn’t even give me another chance to prove that you were safe with me. You didn’t trust me enough.

Despite all this, I miss you so much. I miss your texts, the way you hold my hand every chance that you get, the way you put your arms around me while I wait for the bus or the car, your tight hugs that say everything you can’t, the way you rub your nose against mine, and the kisses that never failed to make me smile. The two months we spent together were amazing.

I know maybe that’s too short of a time to be feeling this way, but I guess this is really how it feels when you lose someone who was never really yours. You get eaten up by the what-if’s and the what-could-have-been’s.

You will always be left wondering how things would have gone had the situation been different.

It’s difficult to get used to days without you again. I wanted more time with you, I wanted more memories with you, but now I just have to be content with what we had. I still hope you’ll come back and take a chance on me, but I know it’s all just wishful thinking at this point. It hurts so badly, but I still want to thank you for everything. Thank you for making me see that I can still be happy again. Thank you for making me feel special. Thank you for the opportunity to be with someone as wonderful as you. I never thought I’d get this chance again but now I know, there are still good guys left in this world.

So I guess there’s nothing else to do but to move on. It’s going to be a rough road ahead, and there will be times when I will stumble and fall, but I’ll have to force myself to keep moving. I have to believe that somewhere, there is that one man who will be brave enough to climb my walls, take my hand, and never let it go, no matter what obstacles we’ll have to go through. It’s hard but I have to keep the faith that somehow, everything will fall into its place. 

Someday I’ll Be Able To Move On From You

I don’t know if getting over you is an option anymore.

I’ve tried. Shit have I tried. But it just hasn’t happened. And Facebook likes to remind me of how happy we used to be. At first, those memories used to be just a piece of nostalgia. Just something I could look at from time to time when they popped up and smile because you and I were so happy.

But now, as I sit here, older but not even close to wiser, they are constant torture. They are the reminders of how happy I was then and how unhappy I am now. Because even though we had so many problems, big ones, the moments of solace in between were worth it. Were worth everything. And if I had to do it all over again, I would. In a heartbeat.

This nightmare makes me wish that I was dreaming. That I’m going to wake up and none of the past few years have happened and I still have you. I still have everything that I had ever wanted and didn’t take it for granted. Because I did take you for granted and that was my fault. I ran so far away to escape the pain of you and I was doing great. Until I was forced to sit with myself. Forced to feel those painful feelings and memories that came along with losing you.

Because you are the most painful feeling I’ve ever felt.

At times it cripples me to the point where my knees buckle and I fall forward. It’s those moments, when I let myself feel the pain of losing you, is when I know I should have done it long ago. Because maybe if I had faced those feelings and dealt with them, they wouldn’t be as severe as they are right now.

But we both know that wouldn’t be true.

You will always be my biggest heartbreak and my biggest regret. And that’s just something I’ve been getting used to.

Something I’ll never fully accept but will eventually just let become a part of me. The jaded part I notice only when I start to let myself feel any sort of romantic feelings for someone else. Because there’s no way I’m going to let someone into those guarded parts of my heart again.

That’s the problem with knowledge, as soon as we know something, we’re less likely to be naïve about outcomes. And I know how hard I battle daily to continue with a routine that just feels so lacklustre without you. One that has taken me years to work on. One that has just made me run away time and time again to feel a version of alive.

I never knew when someone got under your skin, how hard it would be to wash them away. How often you have to actively work on being OK without them. I had always assumed, as adolescent as it sounds, that once you were sure you found the love of your life you both were just meant to be. But I can tell you as an adult, I don’t believe in that anymore.

I don’t believe that love is something that just happens to us and that’s it.

Love is something we work for. That’s a mantra that repeats in my head every time I start to go down the path of new love. This is something I’m going to have to work for. Something I’m going to have to fight for. Something I’m going to have to prepare for. And since the time that you left me, I haven’t been ready to fight again. Because I gave all my efforts, strength and energy to someone who was never going to be mine.

And while it might seem sad that I still wrestle daily with you, while I don’t fully believe I’ll ever be completely over you. While I think that you’ll always manage to haunt me until the day I die, I don’t believe that love is something that will never come again. Love is just waiting for me to pick myself up and get back into the ring.

It’s waiting for me to be able to be strong enough to push through when things aren’t ideal.

So right now, while you still cripple me, I know that one day I’m going to get back up. I’m going to be able to love again. And hopefully you’ll no longer be the nightmare that haunts me but more a distant memory of something that once was.

And when that day comes, it’s to be the best day of my life. 

Thank for break my heart

You were my first love and essentially my everything. I would have gone to the ends of the earth for you. I was putty in your hands because I was so vulnerably in love with you. Loving you made me crazy. Not in a bad way; in a beautiful, earth-shattering way. It made me experience feelings that I didn’t even know were possible. I never knew I could feel so deeply for another person until you came into my life.

And then you broke my heart. You crushed it and left me with scars that will never fully go away. In the beginning, I didn’t think I would be able to make it through the heartbreak. It was the worst pain I’d ever felt. It was like you had driven me out into a desert, told me I was worthless and then drove away, leaving me there to starve and die on my own. I was absolutely terrified. Everything that I knew about my future and myself was shattered. I barely knew who I was anymore. I couldn’t even properly function, reducing myself to a hysterical mess on my couch for three days straight.

Everyone kept saying to me “time heals all wounds.” At first I just couldn’t bring myself to believe them. But after a while, I started to feel like they might be right. I observed many of my friends who had been abruptly been broken up with just like me and they were all doing fine now.

I began to feel to feel a sense of hope that I might be doing fine one day as well. And now I am. It’s still a work in progress and I still feel pain sometimes, but I see the light at the end of this very dark tunnel.

So I just want to thank you for breaking my heart. If you hadn’t, I wouldn’t know what it’s like to hit rock bottom and then pick myself up from there. If I didn’t know how it feels to reach my lowest point, I wouldn’t fully understand how strong I am and how much resilience I possess. Thank you for breaking off our relationship because now I know that I am worth so much more than what you were willing to give me. Know I can see what I want in a woman and what I don’t want. I will look for someone who truly comprehends how special I am and someone who values me way more than you ever did.

Thank you for crushing me. Now I realize that I had lost myself in you. Now I can focus on getting myself back to the incredible and single person I was before I was even been in a relationship. Thank you for making me see the beauty in this breakdown. There was magnificence and poetry in the pain I experienced. Thank you for helping me explore my artistic outlets. It has given me so much inspiration to pursue my love of the arts.

At the same time, thank you for being my first love. If you had never loved me, I wouldn’t know how beautiful life is. You added so many colors to my world. For the first time in my life, I understood every love song, every smile and every blue sky. Love makes life worth living and without you I would have never known how true that is. This entire heartbreak wouldn’t have hurt so badly if we didn’t love each other so passionately. We didn’t end on bad terms and maybe someday we’ll reunite but for now, I just want to thank you for helping me see the splendor in this cruel world.

So thank you for giving me this remarkable experience of loving and losing. I’ve never felt more emotions in my entire life. I’ve also never felt more accomplished. I think a part of me will always love you. But I know that every part of me will forever feel grateful that you loved me, broke my heart and showed me what I’m really made off.

I Fell In Love With When The Timing Was Just Not Right

First of all, let it be known here and now that I did love you. I was only ever cold to you that one time because I cared too much. I could never think normally when I was around you. Some say that infatuation is different from love but what I felt for you bordered in between. I loved you despite i didn't told you but I also crushed on you like you were the best thing since coffee.
I used to believe that love was breath-taking, consuming and potent – it was all these things and more. Love has the ability to break you down like a mere puzzle piece. You thought you were a complete picture. That you have everything figured out. Here I come, world, be ready because I am here to face you. But one person can come into your life and make you rethink everything. And I mean everything. All of your photo is all over my phone.

They will make you ask questions that you never dreamed of before. They will make you want to be better – be someone they would never dream of leaving. They will make you cling to them like a life raft, how can you live without them now when you couldn’t even imagine how life was before you met them?

Here comes the kick: “It’s not you, it’s me.” I could kick myself for using that line. How original can I get? But it couldn’t be any truer. I loved everything about you but I hate everything that I am becoming because of these feelings I harbour for you. I’ve become someone who’s constantly afraid of fucking up because I just can’t imagine losing you that I have lost myself in this process of wanting to be yours.

I want to be the person who sees how the morning light touches your face while you’re still sleeping peacefully. I want to hold your hand. I want to take silent walks with you wherein we don’t even need to talk. I loved the totality of your person but I just don’t like me anymore.

I know that loss is bound to happen but I just can’t get the fear out of my head. You might think that I am departing because I don’t want to lose you. That is partly true. But really, I am leaving because I’m losing me.

I wish you the best in life. Truly, I do. Nothing would make me happier than to see you happy even if I am not a part of your happiness. Make music. Live the life you want to live. You deserve nothing less than genuine happiness. Maybe someday you’ll meet a person worthy of you. And maybe I’ll meet one worthy of me too.

Maybe someday, we’ll meet again and realize that we were always meant to be but we just met when the timing wasn’t right. Maybe we could try again. And we can finally take that walk. 

We Simply Fell In Love At The Wrong Time.

She was everything I ever wanted in a woman. If I were to conceptualise a list of ten desired qualities in a woman, she would score eleven out of ten. She was my other half, this uncomprehendingly wonderful being that fulfilled my life, so much so that I sometimes doubted his existence and thought that I had contrived her in a dream. She inspired me, challenged me and loved me just as I was: quirks, flaws and all. She touched my soul so deeply that I was completely vulnerable to her grasp, which was always tender and caring. She taught me what it felt like to truly love someone down to your core; what it felt like to constantly live with a burning desire, so strong that it actually pains you, and he showed me the perpetually engulfing warmth of deep, flaming, impassioned, mad love. He dreamed up delightful visions of our future together – bright enough for both our imaginations.

I loved every element of her soul.  I saw as more reasons to love her: I loved her heartwarming stutter when she became too excited about a topic of conversation; the sad smile she made that accompanied a vacant stare when remembering happy memories of a loved one lost;

She was my perfect puzzle piece: an over-thinker, a relentless inspiration-seeker, forever a solitary explorer, believing that life is meant for loving, and happiness is meant for sharing. She loved and took note of life’s simple pleasures, like a steaming cup of tea, aged wine, the smell of old books, the beauty in the silliness of a fit of uncontrollable laughter, the underrated phenomena of a thunderstorm, the crinkles in my nose when I laugh and the unique story to the cracks and pops of a spinning vinyl. She was a down-to-earth woman, taking a liking to the distinctive story behind every object, location and individual, equipped with the remarkable ability to connect with your soul; her presence an eternally rare gift. She encouraged my passions, loving the way I wrote words that I had never spoken, and my constant desire to make them bounce off the pages on which they were written. But he was also was my reality: pulling me back down to earth when I had floated too far into space.

My First Love And My First Heartbreak.

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19. Stomach acid (conc. HCl) is strong enough to  dissolve razor blades!! 

20. Take a 10-30 minute walk every day & while you  walk, SMILE. It is the ultimate antidepressant. 

21. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each  day. 

22. When you wake up in the morning, pray to ask God's  guidance for your purpose, today. 

23. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and  eat less food that is manufactured in plants. 

24. Drink green tea and plenty of water. Eat  blueberries, broccoli, and almonds. 

25. Try to make at least three people smile each  day.

26. Don't waste your precious energy  on gossip, energy vampires, issues of the past, negative thoughts  and things you cannot control.  Instead invest  your energy in the positive present  moment.         

27. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and  dinner like a college kid with a maxed out charge card. 

28. Life isn't fair, but it's still good. 

29. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.  Forgive them for everything. 

30. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else  does. 

31. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to  disagree. 

32. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the  present. 

33. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea  what their journey is all about. 

34. No one is in charge of your happiness except  you. 

35. Frame every so-called disaster with these words:  'In five years, will this matter?' 

36. Help the needy, Be generous! Be a 'Giver' not a  'Taker' 

37. What other people think of you is none of your  business. 

38. Time heals everything. 

39. However good or bad a situation is, it will  change. 

40. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick.  Your friends will. Stay in touch. 

41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you  need. 

42. Each night before you go to bed, pray to God and be  thankful for what you accomplished, today.  What if you woke up  this morning and only had what you thanked God for yesterday?  DON’T FORGET TO THANK GOD FOR EVERYTHING.

43. Remember that you are too blessed to be  stressed.

Now:  Think about forwarding this to your friends  to help them lead a happier and healthier life, too!

An Open Letter To My lovely Mother: Thank You For Being My Hero

An Open Letter To My Mother: Thank
You For Being My Hero
       To my Mom,
Thank you.
Thank you for being there for me. You have been my
biggest fan through every single stage of my life and I
couldn’t ask for a better cheerleader. Thank you for
knowing when I was wrong and spanking me when I
was being a brat. I may not have liked it then, but
looking back, I know I’m better off. Thank you for
holding me while I cried and promising me that
tomorrow would be a better day. You’ve been my rock
through breakups, life decisions, and new chapters.
You’ve carried me through when I was convinced I
couldn’t go on. I am eternally grateful. Most importantly, thank
you for showing me right from wrong, for encouraging
me in my walk of faith, and for teaching me the value
of respect not only for others, but for myself as well .
I love you, Mom. You’re my role model and even
though I laughed at everyone who told me this would
happen, you’re my best friend . I got my independence
and my sass from you, and I couldn’t be more
thankful. Sometimes, I know I get busy, but you are
so appreciated. Certainly I wouldn’t be the man I
am today if it weren’t for you. So, thank you – for
absolutely everything. You’re my hero.
Love always,
your Son
DICKSON ORENGO

Open letter to my crush

Hey you,

You beautiful girl. This one is for you. And the funny thing is, you will probably not even know that I wrote this for and about you.

I am crushing hard on you. From the moment I have met you I felt something I did not feel in a long time. You are special, so special and I do not even think you realize how special you are. When I saw you I felt this instant attraction and for me this was weird because you are not my standard ‘type’. You are So beautiful that I could not keep my eyes off of you.
Sometimes I noticed that I was just staring at you. Watching you move and watching you be in a moment and it made me smile. Busy reading your  whatsapp status. You really march to the beat of your own drum, and that is what I like about you and what I admire about you. 
.....missing part check again later...
Your Crush
DICKSON ORENGO.

A letter to my Aunts

Luckily, I was blessed with four loving aunts.

So i thank you all for all of the things done for me over the years and all of the things that are yet to come, and I appreciate all that you do.
I love you all. See you soon.

With All My Love,

Your Niece
DICKSON ORENGO.

A letter to my bestfriend

Dear bestie,
I want to take the time to tell you how very important you are in my life. It's hard sometimes to say these things in person, even to a best friend, so I'm writing you this letter to say it for me.
My friend, you are the most significant person in my life right now. You are my dearest friend, the one person I can be open and honest with, the person who knows me better than I know myself. When I'm with you, I can be myself, with no pretense, and I'm accepted and loved completely for who I am. There are no surprises with you; I know who you are, and you know who I am, and we are able to love one another completely. We aren't always able to spend as much time together as we'd like to, but when we are together, it's as if we had never been apart. Being with you makes me laugh, and it gives me a safe place to cry. You are sensitive and bright and altogether beautiful. I love you for being the wonderful person that you are and for the beauty you bring into my life just by being there. I love you for listening to all my troubles and for sharing yours with me. I love you for your acceptance of me, even when you don't agree with my actions or decisions. I love you for the fun we have together and the openness that characterizes our friendship. I love you most of all for being the best friend that anyone could have!
With gratifulness
ORENGO DICKSON

A letter to my dear ex.

I hope your doing fine, It frustrates me but I had to give it one last shot, chances are if you’re going to read this.
We became a couple in short period of time, you are so wonderful person, everything about you took my breath away, I couldn’t help help my self fallen in love with you. for all the late night talks we had. Some sort of music we are compatible to hear and thank you for taking an interest about learning my culture, that day you spoke to me  made me amazed,you learned it on your  you used to sing nice romantic song to me, I felt crying i love it so much. Then suddenly our relationship turned hard like finding squire roots of a negative number to some people. Finally i found my self single.
i tried my best to give our relationship a second chance because I loved you . I loved you with all my heart I told you I will respect your decision but I still give our relationship a chance, then after a couple of days, you blackmailed me.its a blackmailed I know it. I get into trapped but I realized it when it’s too late, that’s the reason I am letting you go, that’s enough. You still blamed me in all of what’s happened, you accused me easily to my bestfriend, your so mad at me sometimes. I was weak because of love, you made me to know the meaning of love.  I’m just a convenient part of your life, your throwed me easily, my heart broken into pieces, I’m so depressed about it.Everyone thinks I’m happy and okay but really I’m just drowning of sorrow.I already forgive you in all that happened , I learned my lesson to never trust and love too much.i hope someday if fate will meet us we will be okay.You will remain in my heart forever.
thank you for all the good memories you gave to me I will cherish it. I think i will  find a lover like you you though it will take time . I hope you will find also your true love without your insecurities. we should grow up in our own. Always take care and I wish you all Best. And i still love you because of the memory you left to me.
From Your Ex
DICKSON

A letter to my Ex.

Today I am so in love with the Man God made just for me!! Last year I thought I was in love with you. I was going through a really hard time, dude#1 dumped me,  We started off as friends. Then we became really good friends . For two years we were drawn to one another. i would talk to you until you fell asleep. You said my voice was soothing. Then dude#1 messed up and you saw an opening. I really didn’t want a relationship and neither did you. You took care of me and gave me comfort. You tried to convince me that you where not in some kind of twisted relationship .  Then you dumped me cause ?? I don’t know and today I really don’t care.
I really liked you. I would have always had your back and supported you and most of all loved you. Oh well. Only now can I say ………

THANK YOU FOR DUMPING ME

If I tried to hold on to you I would have missed my King!!

THANK YOU AGAIN !!

A letter to our lovely son Silvans

A letter from uncle, Dickson

Dear Silvans,
When you came into this world 2016, you brought a love into our family
heart that I had never before experienced because of my lovely Bro.  I reveled in joy and celebration.
With time you will become older,
You will have your own personality, your own thoughts
and opinions, and your own sense of humor. You  will have your
own interests, your own talents, and your own way of doing
things.
I celebrate your individuality and uniqueness and am
so honored to be part of your life silvans.
As you continue to grow and become an adult, you will live
your own life.
You will have times of happiness and times of
disappointment. You will fall in love, and you will have your
heart broken.

 Life has its ups and downs and is not always
fair, but I know your strength and resilience will see you
through.
May you always know your worth and how incredibly precious
you are! As your uncle Dickson Orengo, it is my privilege to impart these
important truths to you.
Be true to yourself always. There is no one else like you, so
allow your uniqueness to shine through. You never need to
change who you are for someone else. You are magnificent
exactly as you are.
Live your own dreams. Figure out what makes you happy and
pursue it. Follow a path of your own choosing - not mine, not
your dad’s  Mrei , Mum Esther  anyone else’s. Your fulfillment is what I want,
and it will come from following your dreams and living a life
that has meaning and purpose for you.
Don’t take life so seriously. Have fun. Laugh at yourself
when you make mistakes.
Don’t worry about things you
cannot control. You get only one life, so enjoy it to the
fullest.
Love and accept yourself unconditionally. You will always
have yourself even when friends come and go, so make it
your best relationship. The way you treat yourself will show
others how to treat you, so treat yourself like you would your
own best friend. Be kind, respectful, and loving to yourself no
matter what.
Don’t be afraid to take risks. Take big, bold risks! You can
accomplish great things by taking risks. Living life too
cautiously and keeping the status quo will leave you with
regrets. Get outside of your comfort zone and watch as that
comfort zone expands. The more risks you take, the easier it
becomes.
Find your soulmate. You will meet someone one day with
whom you fall head over heels in love and want to spend the
rest of your life. Their gender, race, religion, and culture are
irrelevant to me. As long as you are loved, respected, and
treated well, I will always be happy with your choice.
And, last but certainly not least,
Know that I as yor uncle tunakupenda sana even your dad an mum love you and will always be there for you damu ni nzito kuliko maji. No
matter what, I’ve got your back. You are part of our family ORENGO'S and always will be. We adore you, and there is nothing you could possibly
do to change that. There may be times when we don’t
always see eye to eye, but we still love you and always will.
Love,

Your 

Dad Brother

ENGINEER

ORENGO

 DICKSON

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Cute Romantic Quotes

Romantic love quotes Cute love quotes 1. You are the source of my joy, the center of my world and the whole of my heart. 2. When I tell you I love you, I am not saying it out of habit, I am reminding you that you are my life. 3. I dont need paradise because I found you. I dont need dreams because I already have you. 4. You are the last thought in my mind before I drift off to sleep and the first thought when I wake up each morning. 5. Everywhere I look I am reminded of your love. You are my world. 6. Love is not about how many days, weeks or months you have been together, its all about how much you love each other every day. 7. If I know what love is, it is because of you. ...Hermann Hesse 8. You are my paradise and I would happily get stranded on you for a lifetime. very cute love quote for him. 9. I cant stop thinking about you, today tomorrow always. 10. When I look into your eyes I see the mirror of my soul. (Now, thats a love quote for him from the heart!) 11. This is all I want to do with you forever. 12. Thank you for always being my rainbow after the storm. 13. I am so totally, completely, overwhelmingly, eye- poppingly, life-changingly, spectacularly, passionately, deliciously in love with you. 14. God is keeping me alive but you are keeping me in love. 15. My angel, my life, my entire world, youre the one that I want, the one that I need, let me be with you always, my love, my everything. 16. This morning I awoke and was reminded of the preciousness of life. I realized I should express my gratitude to those who are so very important to me. Thank you for all you have done and have a great day! 17. I love you every step of the way. Short love quote for him. 18. Walk with me through life…and Ill have everything Ill need for the journey. 19. I may not be your first date, kiss or love but I want to be your last everything. 20. The best feeling is when you look at him and he is already staring. 21. And then my soul saw you and it kind of went, Oh, there you are. Ive been looking all over for you. (One of the most romantic love quotes for him) 22. Together with you is my favorite place to be. 23. Good morning my love , our two souls aflame, with my man I feel two hearts beat the same. 24. I am very indecisive and always have trouble picking my favorite anything. But, without a doubt, you are my favorite everything. 25. I still fall in love with you every day! 26. The sun is up, the sky is blue, today is beautiful and so are you. 27. Thank you, my love, for always making me feel like the most beautiful woman in the world. 28. Thank God someone threw me away so you could pick me up and love me. 29. If I had a flower for every time I thought of you, I could walk in my garden forever. ...Alfred Lord Tennyson (One of the most classic and best love quotes for him) 30. It is because of you, my angel, that I now understand all of those quotes about love. (In my opinion, one of the most beautiful love quotes for him) 31. Ive fallen in love many times always with you. 32. I would rather feel your breath on the back of my neck than have all the riches in the world. 33. I still get butterflies every time I see you, even though I have seen you so many times before. 34. There are only two times I want to be with you, now and forever. 35. Cuddling with you would be perfect right about now. 36. Ill never ask you to change for me because you are perfect just the way you are. 37. I went to sleep last night with a smile because I knew Id be dreaming of you but I woke up this morning with a smile because you werent a dream. Good morning baby! 38. I am grateful that I wake up every day next to you. And I am grateful that I lay down every night with you by my side. 39. Thanks to you, I now understand what Aerosmith meant when they sang, I dont wanna close my eyes, I dont wanna fall asleep, cuz Id miss you babe and I dont wanna miss a thing. 40. Thank you for giving me something to smile about every day. Thank you for giving me joy every day. Thank you for giving me a reason to be grateful every day. Good morning my love ! 41. I love the sunrise because each morning its a reminder that I have another day to spend with the man of my dreams. 42. Follow your heart, it knows the way. 43. When you come near me I get chills up my spine, goosebumps on my skin and all I can hear is the beating of my heart. funny love quotes for him, this is one of the funniest and cutest! 44. Yeah, I know hes cute, but hes mine. Touch him and Ill kill you. 45. Thump thump thump with you flatline without you. 46. I would walk through the desert, I would walk down the aisle, I would swim all the oceans just to see you smile. 47. As surely as the sun will rise tomorrow, so too will my heart beat only for you. 48. Thank you for going on this journey through life with me. There is nobody else who I would want by my side but you my angel. 49. As you read these words, know that right at this moment, there is someone who is thinking about you and cares about you. 50. If I did anything right in my life it was when I gave my heart to you. 51. When I wake up in the middle of the night, I reach for you. When my hand finds your skin and I feel your touch my whole being relaxes and fills with joy. This is what I want to happen every night forever. 52. A real man chooses to honor, love, adore, respect and be faithful to one woman only. I am glad you are my man. 53. The moment when you roll over, put your arm around me and pull me close is the moment that makes my life complete. 54. If I would choose between breathing and loving you, I would use my last breath to say, I love you. (Sad love quotes for him like this have strange beauty to them) One of the most powerful love you quotes for him ! 55. I love you for all that you are, all that you have been and all that you will be. 56. You are the type of guy I wanna make breakfast for. 57. This is all I dream of every night. 58. No, he s not perfect. Hes human and hes flawed, but he’s perfect to me and thats all that matters. 59. We fight, we kiss, we hug, we text, we talk, we argue, we laugh, we smile, we love that s us. 60. Your face is to me like the rising sun, a promise of a new start, a hopeful future and the warming of my soul. 61. Every day I fall in love with you more and more. Well, not yesterday. Yesterday you were pretty annoying. (Perhaps, one of the best funny love quotes for him? 62. Every moment spent with you is like a beautiful dream come true. I love you! 63. Your beauty leaves me speechless.One of the most powerful short love quotes for him 64. And when I open my eyes in the morning, I thirst for your touch. 65. My heart is perfect because you are in it. 66. Forever is a long time, but I wouldnt mind spending it by your side. 67. I want to show him what love really is, to make him feel love hes never felt before, to make his heart beat in a way he never knew possible. 68. You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are grey, youll never know dear how much I love you, so please dont take my sunshine away. 69. You make me complete. Never before have I smiled so much. When life is difficult, I just call on you and you renew and refresh me. You inspire me, leave me in awe and give me a reason to live. I didnbt know what love meant until I met you. 70. You are nothing short of my everything. Short romantic and cute Love Quotes for Him 1. You have found true love when you realize that you want to wake up beside your love every morning even when you have your differences. 2. Every morning is a joy because it is another chance to see your lovely smile, your penetrating eyes and your sweet lips. I cannot wait for this night to pass and to see you again in the morning. 3. In this crazy world, full of change and chaos, there is one thing of which I am certain, one thing which does not change: my love for you. 4. You are the sun which gives me warmth, you are the air which gives me life, you are the blood which gives me vitality and you are my heart that beats your name. 5. Sometimes I wish there was no alarm clock because that is the only device which wakes me up while I am dreaming of you. 6. I will always protect you and take care of you. I will shelter you and be by your side always. 7. Look at the brightly burning sun and you will know the extent to which my feelings burn for you. 8. The best feeling in the world is to know that you are mine and I am yours. Every morning that is enough for me to have a good day. 9. I could tell you that you complete me, but that would not be the truth, for each morning when I wake I long for you more than before. 10. When I wake up in the morning, I am thinking of you. When I go to sleep at night, I am thinking of you. And all those hours in between, I think of us. 11. Getting up in the morning is exciting because you are a part of my life. You are the light of my life and the sun in my sky. 12. When I wake up and see you lying next me, I cant help but smile. It will be a good day simply because I started it with you. 13. I dreamt about you last night and woke up with such a great feeling because I know that you are not just a dream but the reality of my life. 14. I long for the day when I can open my eyes each morning and immediately see you next to me. I will always be here for you. 15. My favorite place in the world is lying in your arms gazing into your beautiful eyes. 16. You are the reason I wake up each day and smile and thank God. 17. One day, I caught myself smiling without no reason, then I realized I was thinking of you. 18. Let us flip the coin and see: heads, I am yours, tails you are mine. We could never lose. 19. Whenever youre having a bad day and things just wont go right, remember this I love you. 20. You never fail to amaze me. Everyday, there is something new that makes me love you even more than the day before. 21. I love you to the moon and back, and all across the universe. 22. I loved you yesterday, I love you still, I always have and I always will. 23. I am who I am because of you. Nicolas Sparks ( The Notebook ) 24. Your words are my food, your breath my wine. You are everything to me. Sarah Bernhardt 25. I m thinking of you, that s all I do, all the time. Youre always the first and the last thing on this heart of mine. No matter where I go, or what I do, I’m thinking of you. Dierks Bentley 26. Men always want to be a woman s first love, women like to be man s last romance. Oscar Wilde 27. For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul. Judy Garland 28. If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus a day so I never have to live without you.A.A. Milne 29.What I do and what I dream include thee, as the wine must taste of its own grapes.Elizabeth Browning 30.You are every reason, every hope and every dream Ive ever had. Nicolas Sparks (the Notebook ) 31. I love you and that s the beginning and end of everything. F. Scott Fitzgerald 32. I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. Roy Croft 33.A good wife is one who serves her husband in the morning like a mother does, loves him in the day like a sister does and pleases him like a prostitute in the night. Chanakya 34. My six word love story: I cant imagine life without you. Anonymous 35. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you are the world. Bill Wilson ▶▶▶▶▶▶ Some will upload soon check later happy to see you again I wish you great success in your own endeavors and to receive everything the universe has to offer and more! With Infinite Love and Gratitude! dickson Biography and Personal Profile Signature